Life at the end of his page is death

He just goes on killing people as he wishes.

He killed Andrei, Andrei Bolkonsky in WAR AND PEACE and he killed him twice too. I cried for him, both the times. The first time, he just goes to this peak of death and returns back again. He looks at Napoleon and the vast unending sky and gauzes it’s height. I wept, god knows, I wept, and went crazy, didn’t know what to do. So I walked along the streets with the book in my head wishing there was a soul somewhere to lean on and cry and not hear the words ,”It’s just a book”. But I could fine noone, and well, there’s mother even then. So I wept on her and she said the same words in exact terms, and it broke my heart again. I wanted to tell her to stop consoling me, and for some reason, her concern made me angry and hot-tempered, but I held it in. Bottled it up, and released it in more tears.

Then I went on with the book, to know, Andrei didn’t die. He made it alive. Blink. Blink. Blink. He isn’t dead? Oh jeez! Am I sposed to curse or celebrate? I don’t know, I did both, and gradually, he really killed him. My dream man, Andryushka lay there dead once again. This time, it wasn’t the active marathon, but a slow sadness that filled in.

Anyway, he murders Anna too in Anna Karenina. She just flings herself across a rail the way a man did at the start. And poof! she’s dead. There’s no miracle. No miracle happens in the last minute to save her. No preacher in the last moment to console her.

I don’t know which book it is from, I forgot the name of the story but it is about two men who start their travel together. One man dies, and the next man competes with hunger and nature and manages to survive through the huge spans of pain. A wolf (not a dog, if i remember correctly) and him, journey through starvation and inch slowly towards death, when the man, in the last minute is rescued by a ship and lives. Tolstoy didn’t have to kill the wolf. But of course, he did.

Alyosha the pot, from the story Alyosha the pot, is dead too. After all that work, all those things he had to go through and made to go without, he had never been righted. He just dies.He never got to marry Ustinya, and hurray! we now know, he never will either.

I believe he kills them to make us hope for the existence of a paradise and a god. And pull the non-believers into believing his beliefs. But those who resist know, that those good men dead, the strong wolf dead, wouldn't make it anywhere. They'll simply rot.

Bye.